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these 2 guys mouth the lyrics like they really sang the song! the one in front is so slutty n the one behind wans to get famous.. perfect match.

i went to renew my ID 2dae in yuen long 2dae. the foto is so ugly! after tat i went walking ard yuen long

i went on a journey to look for a job 2dae.

i specially dressed like this cos i thought i look smarter. damn, my face is so fat.

as theres also another recuitment exhibition in TM town plaza, i went to the one in TM first. there isnt much to see so i went to CWB by west rail. its raining n its SUPER windy.

i walked here n there n found my own way to the central library. on the way there, my umbrella overturn cos the wind is really strong. the exhibition all is already crowded with ppl when i got there. anywae, i fill in 6 forms to the different company, they are:

1) pizza hut
i filled in the form n pass it to the lady at the counter. she didnt say anything Ls except that they will call me for interview within 2 weeks if i'm shortlisted. anywae.. i saw the girl draw a cross on my form. damn!

2) ikea
i filled in the form too n pass it to the lady @ the counter. shes nice. asked me a few question n said they'll call me within a week? i forgot...

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filled in the form n pass it to the person @ the counter.

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filled in the form for starbucks. the lady is super nice n frdly

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filled in the form for super sandwich. n this time the handing up  of form is like a mini interview cum briefing. they can only hire me as a part timer cos this is only going to b my summer job. they'r offering $20/hr. not a lot but its ok cos i can part time somewhere Ls too.

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the form for this job is really detailed.. the guy @ the counter asked me alot of question.. n i saw him crossed my form.

as i was talking to the ppl @ each counter, i try to hide my tongue but i bet they saw it n tats y pizza hut n Âé²¼²è·¿ cross my form. n i think my eye shadow is too much for a job 'interview' but i swear a lot ppl @ the expo is not much better than me.

even if i dun get these jobs, i've got a few back up jobs ready. waitressing in a cafe, hotel dinner ´«²ËÔ±, tuitioning mandrian and eng n a junior in a salon.

after tat i took a bus back to hoi tin for dinner.

my dad aunties n uncle all asked me to work in YLK. but i really dun wan cos not only i cant make real frds, i might b working in YLK for the rest of my life after sch n so i think i wan to work somewhere Ls while i still can. they just dun understand la..

and also, the forms requires me to fill in my special skills.. i really cant think of one. mayb u guys can tell me wad u think my special skill is..

i better get a haircut so that i'll look good in the foto i'm going to take tmr when i go renew my IC

i went to SZ with 2 of my aunties 2dae. we ate alot! HAHA. my aunties told me they always go food hunting when theygo to SZ. auntie ching always go hunting for hainanese food in SZ cos she say there isnt hainese foos in hk n the chef in her outlets in ma on shan doesnt cook hainese food for the worker's meal.

anywae, we went to eat in a hainese restaurant near(actually its more than a km away) lor wo. we had chicken, mutton, mixed veggie and yam stem all cooked in hainese style. the food is great but its a bit too salty. after tat we went to nan tang to get my extensions removed. i went back to the place n the girls/women inside actually recognized me. they had the place renovated n it look so much classier n nicer now. they r still as nice. i wanted to stay a little while longer but we left the place after i got my eyebrows trimmed as my aunties r waiting for me. we hang ard nan tang for another 2 hours. den we went back to get the hainese rice cakes my auntie ordered from the restaurant we had lunch in. as we stepped in, auntie ching saw the head chef in her outlet eating in the restaurant with his wife/gf/mistress/frd/wadeva. the world is really small la. can even meet a frd in SZ @ tat moment of time.

after tat we went to eat again. this time, we went to a jiao zi guan to haf dumplings. the food in this place is really good! very spicy the portion is definately value for money. i almost puke after the meal cos i seriouly can feel my lunch @ the bottom of my stomach n my dinner in my troat. after tat we walk back to the railway staion to go back to hk n home on a mini bus.

when i got home, i called my mum thinking tat i can chat with her n tell her bout the dentist i found. n so, i told her bout the dentists hoping to get her advice of which to visit. i told her i'll go to the dentist who said can help me get the fucking(of cos i didnt said this word to her) braces off but it'll cost alot of money n den she stated going on n on bout how i spend SO MUCH money all my life. she even mention the fucking cons. den i said this dentist is nice cos hes frdly n gentle(with my mouth n lips). n she said everyone is nice to me fucking started to say i do not know how to judge a person cos whoeva talk nicely to me is a nice person. n she started going on n on saying bad things bout me. i felt offended(yes by my mum) n suddenly i couldnt take it anymore n so i talked back n started getting really pissed. i shouted into the fone like i nv did b4. i was being nice to her n all she can fucking do is to say all this things to me. i cut her fone when she was shouting back. WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH HER???!!!

I SWEAR I''LL NEVER CALL HER AGAIN. i dun even wan to talk to her on the fone anymore. thank god i do not haf to hear/see/live with her for @ least 1.5 yrs from now.

if u happen to see my last entry, i must sae that i wasnt like THAT all the time. i was just venting my anger thru blogging n it obviuosly worked 100%.

as i was saying, I"M BACK IN HK!!!

i went dentist-hunting in TM 2dae. 1 went to 4 dental clinic and only 2 r somehow willing/able to help me with my braces. one of the dentist say that its IMPOSSIBLE to finish the whole teeth thing b4 oct. but the other say he'll try his best.. now i really need to discuss with my mum n daddy b4 deciding which clnic to go to..

tmr, i'll b going to SZ with my aunties. n i'm going to get my extensions remove. n i'll get a haircut after i get back to hk.. how shld i cut my hair??

i haven cried so much for such a long time i dont even rember whens the last time i cried. i hate everyone. altho man n fy has been staying with us for the past 10 yrs, they never treat us like a family. everything which happened in the hse just do not concern them. they never spared a thought for mummy. especially now tat auntie yoyo is gone, when mummy is doing all the hse work all by herself. they practically treat her like their maid.

n thanks to FU YAN YU. our family is now duno like wad. WHAT THE FUCK!! thanks to her. nobody is talking to anyone anymore. she n ngai has not been talking to each other since N yrs ago when she had her eating disoder also known as ANOREXIA. FU YAN YU IS SUFFERING FROM ANOREXIA. spread the news!!! tell the whole world!!!!!!!

i do not fucking care how she will throw her tantrum at mummy. how she will bang herself against the wall. how she eat food cooked in just water. how she will cry like a crazy woman. how she sleep on the floor bcos she does not wan to sleep with mummy. how she does not talk to mummy when mummy cooked somwthing which she thinks is fat.how she cry and hate herself for  'THINKING' that shes eating too much when she actually eat nothing. she is just sick. FUCKING SICK. i hope she just die.

she said one of her frds always read my blog. i bet shes lying cos i bet she does not have any frds.  i hate the way she talks now cos wad she says is just all rubbish with no purpose and meaning. i hate it. her mood change so fast n so sudden. I HATE YOU.

i couldnt take it anymore this morning when u started your crap this morning (@ fucking 6am in the morning) i shouted @ you. actually i wanted to slap u. fucking wake up! mummy and daddy do things her way bcos they say she need time, patience and support from her family. MY ASS. when things didnt go well her way, she takes it out on mummy. even when she cant fucking rember wad she just revise. i cant stand it when i see mummy getting treated like tat. i always talk back/shout/comment on her fucking behaviour when she did something which pisses me off. mummy always ask me to shut up. daddy n mummy is jut not helping her at all when they help her using the 'soft' method. mummy said i like to stand out for ppl for shouting at yan this morning. I DO NOT FUCKING STAND OUT FOR JUST ANYBODY. i shouted @ her this morning bcos i cant stand her being like tat. she never face her own problems n she does not wan ppl to help her. shes such a loser. i'm so ashamed to haf a sister like tat. n this afternoon, daddy called n ask me to fucking leave her alone! i tell u i hate it when daddy ask me to do tat. everybody thinks that is MY FAULT that she bcome like tat. GET A LIFE!

FU YAN YU, KILL YOURSELF WADEVA I DO NOT FUCKING CARE. u r the one who cause our family to bcome like that NOT ME. i HATE YOU.

i dreamt of my pri sch mates last nite! we were having a pri classmates reunion(cos i only see my upper pri classmates). i wasnt sure wad we were doing but i think i saw everyone in formal wear. actually i couldnt rember who i saw. haha.

anywae.. i woke up thinking bout my pri schmates. i was thinking if i shld meet them up cos the dream might b a hint to somthing which may happen. mayb i think too much again.. as i was brushing my teeth. i suddenly rember my pri schmates in hk. so i decided i'll meet them up instead. 

however, i totally lost touch with them(all of them) when i came over to singapore. i rember theres 3 or 4 other kids who used to attend the same kindergarden class with me in my primary 1 class. i still rember their name.. =)

i'll start searching for them..... PLEASE let me find them.... or anyone in the same cohort will b nice.. =)

I'M SO EXCITED!!!!!!!!!!!

miami ink is a show which i've been waiting for (many many many many...) months. it was aired on tv finally on last sunday night. but however, i missed it. i didnt even watch the 2nd telecast of the show. it all happened when i think too much.

there wasnt anything on tv last sunday so i was very very bored. i was reading my reader's digest as i was waiting for miami ink to start @ 11pm. but then, it was only 9pm.. 2 more hours to go.. n so  i continued reading. i look at the clock to check the time every now and then. 9.28.. 9.55.. 10.05.. 10.08.. 10.10.. 10.11.. 10.11 10.11 10.11 10.11 10.12...

i started to feel bored. real bored. so i stopped reading n started channel surfing on tv(tats wad i always do when i was tv)... at 1050, i decided tat i'll sleep early so tat i can watch the 2nd telecast the next(boring) day. i was actually planning something to do for my next boring day. n so i slept.

supposing that the 2nd telecast will be aired ard 1pm, i checked the tv schedule to confirmed the time. to my horror, the tv schedule for discovery travel & living was never on the newspaper.. n so i sat in front of the tv from 11am to 3pm to wait for the show to start. but it never started cos all i saw on tv is jamie oliver, the gay chief who brought us all over europe to look for food..... nothing miami ink.. n so, i missed miami ink like tat. i swear i'll never plan my next day again

to make up for wad i've lost i went online everywhere to look for the DL of the 1st episode of miami ink.. everywhere oso canot find!! anyone with the 1st episode of miami ink msn me @ syzue@hotmail.com!! PLEASE!!!!

it suddenly occur to me now tat the show might b replayed in the 7am - 10am timeslot.

I MISS SCHOOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i was watching ¬P´Á¤GÀÉ®× just now n if u've been to hk, u'll sure to see lots of tuition center advertisments.. they r SO commercialized tat i think they look more like a talent agency. anywae.. a tuition teacher in those center can earn up to 300K HKD per mth!!! tats a lot..  these tuition center made bout 5 billion HKD each yr.

i've been back in singapore for a week n i've only been out 3 times. i spent most of my days @ home watching tv, going online, eating, sleeping, reading reader's digest(nothing Ls). this is wad i've been doing @ home these days. nothing Ls! SERIOUSLY!!

mummy sae tat i can go back next week. i'm excited! haha.. but i haf yet to meet up with most of my frds. (tho there isnt many i need to meet)